#19 letting go

Breaking up with someone hurts so much.

It hurts even more when you don’t want to break up with the person you’re breaking up with and even more than that when you’re still desperately in love with them. But when there is a tiny voice saying this relationship is destructive and needs to change and then there is love which says fuck you tiny voice, love is bigger and stronger than you, it turns out the tiny voice is usually right.

Love will not save the day, it won’t fix the gaping holes that seem to just grow and grow, and it is not all you need. It doesn’t matter how much two people love each other, if there are chasms which cannot be bridged and problems which come up time and time again then the sane part of you has to let go.


Letting go really really hurts. I’m not ready to let go yet.